Saturday, July 16, 2005

Anxious, nervous, excited!

Not sure what to put here, but my daughter informed me I hadn't updated my blog and it's what she reads when she is bored at work!

I'm getting excited for Nationals. Excited to be away from the frenzy of getting ready for fair, and excited to meet authors, agents, and editors. I'm nervous that I will duck into my shell when I get around so many people, even though I have set my main goal of this conference to pop my head out and talk to at least one editor and agent a day. And make the most of all contacts I can with fellow writers and authors. I'm nervous that no one will ask me to send them something! I know that's foolish especially now that I can pitch a contemporary as well as the paranormal, but I've had so many rejections I've almost become programmed to hear only that.

I'm not sure how many or if I will go to any of the loop bashes. There are so many and I don't think I can stand that much excitement! I do know I want to go to the PRO workshop and hit as many panel discussions as possible. I know my craft isn't flawless, but I think at this stage I need to know more about the market and where I can sell what I write and who is buying what. And get a feel for the agents and editors of the houses I am interested in.

My good friend is coming on Monday to help me decided what outfits to take. I know it shouldn't be this complicated, but for some reason I just feel the need to put my best face forward. I really want something good to come of this trip. Anxious? Yes! Nervous? Undoubtably! Excited? I have goose bumps!


wavybrains said...

I'm all of the above too! And I have the added dilemma of having to pick things that can fit around the doggie's space needs :P :P You'll do FINE :P

Christy Keerins said...


Thank you for the passing of a few dull moments at work by up-dating your blog! Have fun planning your outfits...and don't be afraid to step outside of your shell!

Anonymous said...

I understand what you're going through Paty.

Every time I think about actually being at National I get butterflies in my stomach and feel like I'm going to throw up.

The sad part is I'm not even going to pitch!

I'm just going so I can submerge myself in it all and I'm hoping that something permeates deep enough that I can finally finish a manuscript, a query, and a synopsis before next year.

I'm still at the fundamental stage of this whole game and I have so many rules to learn; I feel like I haven't made it to enough practices so I'm stuck on the bench at the play-offs. I don't know...

Anyway, you're going to be great at National. You have terrific goals that you've set and you have probably been playing it out in your mind so many times by now that when it's in front of you, you will just flow and they will soak you up and beg to have you submit your work to them!

(Double eye and finger crossing for you!)

I just can't see you crawling in a shell to hide. You're too ready to be out there now. There is a season for all things and your time is now.

Elisabeth Naughton said...

Me, too!

And very frustrated with shopping. Oh, don't get me started.